40 weeks
02 December 2017
40 weeks, 4 days
I was hoping I wouldn’t be able to write this post, but 4 days in, I thought I’d share a little of this last week of pregnancy. We’re heading to the hospital for an induction and I had a moment to reflect on the past few days. We caught the rest of the daylight and I had Jordan take some last photos of this bump. It’s crazy to think that we’re about to meet the little one that’s been growing in there for the past 9 months.
baby is the size of a
big box of macarons
how i’m feeling
It depends on the moment, but for the most part, I’ve been feeling pretty good. Mostly just annoyed that I’m still pregnant. I have this crazy energy and have been decorating our house like crazy for Christmas, repacking out hospital bag, reading books, and cleaning. By the end of the day, I know I need to rest, but I’ve been making sure that everything is ready, just in case. I’m glad we’re at the end of this, because I was starting to lose it cleaning the house every night.
I had contractions all night one evening. They were very real and regular and I thought for sure they were the start of something and would carry on. Of course in the morning, as soon as we were about to come around to the idea, they completely stopped. I was so disappointed and very tired. 
doctor appointment update
At my 40-week doctor appointment, we talked about the coming week and next steps. We set up an induction date that worked with our schedule. I was already dilated about 3 cm at the appointment.
My doctor texted us on Friday after the appointment saying that the date we scheduled she wouldn’t be able to be there, so we moved it up a night.
weight gain & self-image
At my appointment, my weight seemed way off. They had me use a weird scale as my doctor wasn’t in her usual spot. (They’re still getting the doctor offices together with the hospital move) So, I don’t really know my actual final weight. I’m ok with that. According to my scale at home, I gained a couple pounds making my final weight gain at 35 pounds.
I actually think I might miss this bump. That wasn’t the case at all with my first pregnancy, but this time around I’ve somewhat enjoyed being pregnant. It hasn’t been as much of a burden and in turn, my self-image and mindset have been much better.
I’ve even prepared better for postpartum. I know that it’s a hard time and that I may not feel quite myself at first. I also know to have some in-between clothes. I know better this time then to think that I will be able to fit into my old clothes and that maternity clothing doesn’t always look so cute anymore.
thoughts before heading to the hospital
It all feels very unreal. I honestly can’t believe that we’re at this point already. We don’t have a name and I’m lucky that I’ve had this week to prepare. It’s also weird to just go to the hospital, it makes it more difficult to mentally prepare.
how ruby is taking it all in (and how i’m taking in seeing this one as a big sister)
The biggest thing for me at the moment is leaving Ruby and knowing that when we come back her (our) entire world is going to change. I’ve loved these days with just her and there have been times when we wonder if it should just be her. I can’t quite imagine adding another little one to the mix.
But, I know she’s going to love having a companion, someone to lead and guide, and a friend. I’m glad we’ve had so long with just her, but I also can’t wait for time to happen and to see her with a little sister
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I can’t wait to meet this little one, to see what she looks like, to pick a name that fits her.
