On the first day of Spring, I felt hopeful. We had been trying since the fall to conceive, so I took a pregnancy test even though it was a little early for one. Sure enough, displayed across the screen were the words PREGNANT (can we just talk about how much easier that is instead of the lines?) I sat down and wrote this post, which if you read now shows that I was just as much excited for a new baby than Spring. The first day of Spring is always a favorite of mine and I think this one might go down as my favorite of all time.
I wanted to text Jordan immediately, but decided to come up with a way to surprise him. I told Ruby which was just slightly disappointing because she didn’t understand at all. We got to work on a coloring page to share the news with papa. It’s now proudly magneted to our dirty fridge along with a recent photo from the Hibachi grill in which Ruby is not wearing pants.
Since he wasn’t expecting it and since Ruby’s main effort was to cover the surprise in giant stickers, it took a while for Jordan to get it. We had a good laugh at this picture and how it foreshadows Ruby stealing bottles from her sibling.
I think I’ve mentioned many times and my lack of presence here shows that this hasn’t been the easiest year. While that’s true, it’s also been full of so many good things.
There was a point about a week or so after I was pregnant that I had a breakdown. I had been sick for over 5 weeks and the pregnancy symptoms were just setting in. Jordan and I were on a date for the first time in forever and it was actually the first time we really talked about the baby with him being so busy at work. After our dinner instead of doing anything else he parked and we talked, I sobbed. I remember telling him about how scared I was for the rest of the year. I hadn’t felt normal all year and now I was pregnant. 2017 was just not going to be the year I felt like myself.
If you’ve heard me talk about my pregnancy with Ruby than you’ve probably heard a lot of complaints and how I didn’t care for those nine months. And rightly so, because now I know what a pretty normal pregnancy feels like without nausea every waking hour. We’re half way in and most days I can actually forget that I’m pregnant, despite those sweet little (surprising strong) kicks that remind me.
I can’t quite express how grateful I am to be feeling normal this pregnancy. Even the first trimester, once I recovered from my cold, I felt well. I mean, despite that crazy fatigue, which I’m not sure you can get around. But, starting 10 weeks to now, it’s been a dream. I already jokingly say to this child that they’re already my favorite. 😉 This little baby, pictured above at 20 weeks and at 10 weeks in the photos, has already been such a pleasure.
Knowing that we’ve done this whole thing before is also helping to make the days go by smoother and with less worry. I’ve been having more bouts of anxiety this year, but am happy to report that even with all the crazy hormones, I’ve felt a lot of peace this Spring and Summer. Taking a break from everything, including social media and this blog has helped to focus in on my growing family. It’s been a busy few months and this little one has already been on a plane a few times and to the west coast twice.
I’m starting small with a collection of new things for this little one. With the essentials already covered, I’m excited to focus on a few fun things for this little bundle. I started with these moccasins from Freshly Picked, the first thing I also bought for Ruby. It didn’t take me as long this time to grab a pair because I now know that not only are they great as a keepsake they also stay on baby’s feet! They didn’t make the crib/newborn size when we had Ruby. They came out just after, so I’ll be glad to be able to use these right away with our winter babe.
We’re waiting to find out the gender (ok, we already know, but one thing at a time ;)) to gather more things. I’ll be sharing soon, but have a lot of pregnancy updates for you in the mean time. I’ve been better this time around with taking photos of the bump.
Thanks, Freshly Picked for gifting us these sweet newborn moccs to celebrate the announcement of our little one. You’re one of our favorites. Keep a look out on my instagram for a giveaway coming soon, you can follow me here.
