15 October 2017
33 weeks, 5 days
I know I said I’d wait until 36 weeks to start complaining, but I think that point has come early for me. Jordan started his FMIS rotation, which means he’s working long hours in the hospital. Though, up until this point, he has been working 12 hour day anyway, so not much will change other than that he won’t have weekends anymore. The day I took these photos he was on call at the hospital for 30 hours.
I am grateful that we both were able to get some ok sleep and Jordan was able to grab a solid nap, so we didn’t start the week in too bad of a spot. It was also the only call shift that I have to do alone, for all of his others I have family or friends staying with me and I am so, so glad for that.
I also came down with a cold this week (now at 34 weeks) which has been no joke while pregnant. And suddenly all the other pregnancy symptoms started rolling in as well the past couple weeks. I’ve been able to keep up my spirit for the most part until this cold came.
A question I’ve been getting often is, “are you ready? you must be ready” But, it just makes me freak out a little inside because I’m not ready. at all. Physically or mentally.
baby is the size of a
pain d’epi – a baguette made in the form of a wheat stalk
how i’m feeling
I’m pretty sure you have a good idea of how I am feeling from my intro to this post. Overall, I’m not feeling so well, but most of that has to do with a cold. I’m on day 3 of it now, so I’m hoping that it goes away quickly. It just seems to exasperate my pregnancy symptoms, which I was tolerating before.
Anxiety is also starting to kick in, which has been put at bay, thankfully, for most of this pregnancy. Being sick, realizing that I will be full term in a few weeks, and Jordan working a lot has brought it on. Even while being sick I haven’t stopped, which probably isn’t the best idea, but if I sit my mind just runs, so I’m not sure what’s better. I’ve been combating it this week with printing out calendars and compiling a giant list. I created a little family command center with the next three months and all that we need to do. It helped me to focus and feel better, while still anxious, I’m not sitting in it, I’m taking action. So, I’m pretty proud of my progress, but it’s probably also hormones.
One good thing, I finally went in for an OMT appointment and it helps a lot with my hip pain. It was simple and he just did some adjustments to straighten everything out. He taught Jordan how to do it as well, so he will be able to do it every week. While it didn’t completely take away the pain, it helped considerably and I don’t feel so encumbered.
So, so many pregnancy symptoms. They’re really just coming out of the woodwork at this point. The most annoying one has been restless leg syndrome, which comes around just after putting Ruby down when I want to rest. I had this with Ruby too, and it was terrible.
I also have hip and lower back pain, heartburn and acid reflux, headaches, fatigue, tension headaches
But, I think by some strange miracle my sciatic nerve pain went away? I wonder if it had something to do with the adjustments I got.
what i’m looking forward to
In the midst of this rougher point in my pregnancy, I’ve been thinking about what life will be like with this little one. It has been hard for me to imagine up until this point. While I think about generally what it will be like, I often skip over this winter. As we get closer to decluttering our home and cozying it up for the holidays, I’m anticipating a much slower pace. That’s the sweet thing about newborns, they require you to slow down, to focus on things like sleeping and eating and not much else. I’m looking forward to the holidays when Jordan is taking his paternity leave.
have you picked out a name?
We still don’t have a name picked out yet, and I’m not sure that we will. I may just have to meet this one to decide. Jordan has way more of an input than I remember with Ruby, but we still managed to agree on a few. None of them seem to be the one just yet.
I bought the skirt I’m wearing in this photo early on in my pregnancy on sale at target, and then found it even more on sale for 5 bucks and they only had a large, which is perfect for this giant bump. I love that this pregnancy I’ve been able to still find some cute pieces and save the maternity price tag for only the essentials. The nice thing about wearing a high-waisted skirt is that I can use a non-maternity t-shirt The cardigan is from Forever21, another favorite this pregnancy. And these booties are so ridiculously comfy.
I probably could use a couple more maternity t-shirts, but I’ve been making by doing laundry often. I’m really missing my favorite shirts from my pregnancy with Ruby. I’m debating ordering one or two since Gap has a pretty big sale right now. What do you think, worth it for one month of use?
how’s ruby taking it all in
my girl. I’m starting to get a little nervous about how she will respond when the baby is actually here. Lately, she only wants me, last night she threw a tantrum when Jordan tried to do something for her. “Mama do it,” she cries. It’s been a nightly struggle as she only wants her mama, but I’m just so tired. Many friends have said this has been a common thing with the new baby coming. I keep reminding myself that she’s can’t fully understand why I can’t keep up like before.
There are glimpses of hope, to see her say good morning to baby sister. Or smother her friends baby siblings in kisses. and maybe also squeeze them a little too hard. I’m reminded that Ruby will love having a sibling. I also may need to build a fortress for this baby to protect her from this toddler.
weight gain & self-image
it’s just going downhill at this point. i don’t feel well even on the inside, so i feel sort of crappy on the outside as well. and just being sick is really doesn’t help. i’ve stopped keeping track of my weight at this point. when i go to the doctor it fluctuates and always seems to be like 5 pounds more than at home, which wasn’t the case earlier. we’ve been surviving over here and eating out a ton. even if we try to do healthier options like sushi, it still doesn’t seem to be as good as eating at home.
what are you doing to combat symptoms?
Diet and exercise seem to play a big part in how i’m feeling. While it’s hard and it hurts to begin, yoga has been so helpful. I finally had to tell my doctor to tell me to do it, that it will help and is beneficial. So, I’ve been fitting it in every night at least.
For restless leg: If you’ve struggled with restless leg in pregnancy, then you know how terrible it is. It may be my least favorite, because it’s incredible annoying. It hides until you finally get a chance to relax and sit down or go to sleep and then decides to strike. It’s the main cause right along with acid reflux keeping me up at night.
To combat it i’ve been known to take a bath or a shower if it’s really bad. I also do yoga every night before bed and that helps a little.
Also, apologizing now because I had this post ready last week but didn’t proofread and just decided to post it. So, just ignore the typos, run-on sentences will always be there though 😉